Wowzer!

It's been 9 years since my last post here. But I have good news. I'm not dead! The bad news? I'm still drinking. A lot less, because I'm getting older and my body can't take it... and I have another piece of good news... I stopped smoking. It's been 1 year. I still crave it, mind you, but vaping helps.
Finally, my marriage is falling apart... but more about my story later. Hopefully before another 9 years...

Long time...

Long time passed, but I'm doing much better... had a classic moment of clarity, I suppose. Still, the odd drink slips through the net, but I never thought I could be doing this... cheers!

Hope

Maybe today will be the day... maybe...

Horizon

It's exactly one month since my last post and nothing has changed... many failed attempts... very sad and depressing. Why am I so weak-willed?

That guilt feeling

It never goes, does it? Sneaky bastard! Why can't I just be normal? Why am I so obsessed with it? So what? What's a drink? Nothing! Why am I torturing myself so much over this? Why do I feel so guilty? Why? There is no reason. There are no reasons. It's all in my head. I just can't be normal.

Big mountain, small mountain

It's not always possible to achieve what you want in life, let alone in this life. Especially if we make our life difficult to climb. Big mountain, small mountain. It's up to us, isn't it? Still a fraud.

Still suffering

Says it all... get a grip!